Mother's Intution

They say that a mother's intuition is the best knowledge out there. You have this feeling. You know something. I've been searching mine to see if maybe I did have some sort of intuition about what was going to happen with Mackenzie. Of course, I never thought it would be like this - I don't think anyone could predict these circumstances. But, from what I remember there were signs that I think I ignored.

• I never actually believe I was pregnant. My period was late, but I didn't seem to notice any signs (especially ones I had had with Emma) and even though the test said "pregnant" I still didn't believe it.
• They say that you feel the kicks with susequent pregnancies sooner because you know what it feels like. I felt kicks with Emma at 18 weeks. With this one it was more like 20+.
• You usually begin to show sooner with the next pregnancy. I started showing roughly the same time (20+ weeks).
• I always appeared to be small. Everyone always doubted my due date.
• I hate to admit this one, but I didn't really seem to bond with this pregnancy. With Emma I talked to her, sang to her, etc. Maybe that is because it was my first, but this one just didn't feel the same.

Looking back on this now, I feel like I should have said something. I should have made them double check things. I didn't trust myself. I kept brushing my feelings off making myself feel like I was overreacting. With any future pregnancies that I might be blessed with, I now know that I will not brush anything off. I might even be one of those people that buys or rents a fetal heart monitor just for my own peace.

Lesson - Trust your own intuition. It is not likely to be wrong.